First Post- Trying to find my feet in this new world

I am experimenting at the same time I am writing my very first entry in this, my very own blog! I would not have imagined this two years ago. Having a blog, having anyone that would want to read something I wrote! For all I know, this could become a blog of one. Me, myself and I. But I must admit that in addition to the war fought against Susie's cancer and our daily fight, I found writing to be peaceful and I loved the interchange of ideas. People would give me thoughts that helped me during our struggle. So, as I respectfully begin to close down the Caringbridge site, I open this one. I've got no grand expectations, but it will allow me a place where I can carry on about lots of things. Great memories from younger days, also input from others who have their own tales and from this, I feel I'll get the most interaction and enjoyment.

First, Old business. Hard to call it that really, but it has not been a full month since I lost Susie. I'll be going along at a good speed when the whole thing will land on me. This person who has been a part of my life, together we made two children, and went through some really hard trials in life is gone. At those moments, you can really get jerked back hard.

So, I'm a widower at 42. I would not have wanted nor wished anything like this on myself or anyone else. My grandmother was widowed when young when my grandfather William Motheral never got to see the Fifties. Only now do I understand some of her in ways I never could before. She had a young son, John, and now owned a pharmacy, yet wasn't a pharmacist. It took hard work for her to overcome and actually succeed and I wish I had her right now to talk to.

Well, I had to start a post, just to see if this thing works! So there it was. Nothing fancy at all. But a definite signal pattern (for any old enough to remember those things on analog tv) that we are up and running. Since I know there aren't any members I don't know how to close but I'll do it the same way I normally do.
Sincerely, PM