My apology to everyone. But a virus took my prized computer and I found it was harder to go and get a new computer..do the setup, add the internet connection.. I think you all understand that part. This stuff used to be fun for me once. Once!
I hope in the interim everyone is doing well. Winter will soon fall away, and reveal my most favorite time which is Spring. Proof of life eternal. The whole world, especially nature, seems to be just thrilled. I actually went through a part of my life oblivious to the blooms that explode in the spring. I never tire of them now... a testament to life.. its resilience. Beauty. Oh yeah, the world is for that wonderful period of time literally blazing with the new blossoms of for example, the dogwood. On that trail in Knoxville it is so beautiful. White brilliance just farther than the eyes can see. Fall may be beautiful, but it is a swan song. Winter is coming. I love Spring... oh yes I've said that.
Our family continues! I remain so proud of my girls, who looking back never seemed to show any faltering. I don't recognize hardly that man who alone in this very room I am in now, stared at the walls and was in just such a horrible state. I'm very proud I don't hardly recognize him. He wasn't doing his girls any good, nor himself. It got very lonely here, and for those who did hang in there with me I have the most profound love and gratitude. Truly. Many would see me every two to three weeks, but the day to day was the time that I chose life over whatever that staring at the walls thing was. I promise to for the rest of my life not ever reach such a low point. All understandable, but life is too fleeting and precious to not treasure each beautiful day here. My girls responded immediately, and I realized they need their father to be this way. So full steam ahead. I've got it now.
Not sure I've got a real topic to throw out there and talk about. The snow has really come this year! I'm a snow lover!!! We went quite a few years with some meager snows if you could have called them that! So I was thrilled by this weather, and know certain people do not like it at all. But I will forever remember it. A magic descends just for a little while, and the whole world slows down just a little bit. I like that. So, I hope many of you felt the same. I know my New York friends would have real trouble seeing what the big deal is! Well, down here since the probability is so low for a crippling snow, we just don't invest in the big plows, et cetera that they do up north! But I haven't had a real fire in fireplace during a snow on the ground and I hate that. That would really do it for me. Maybe we have another storm or two ahead before this winter departs.
I suppose I will close. this was the first test of my new computer. I haven't even built my email stuff into it yet, which takes enough work that I'm avoiding it for the moment. School is back in tommorow after being out for so much of the week. Will get the girls as readjusted to normal sleep patterns, bedtimes as I can. In time for the weekend. I do hope Victoria gets to go to her cousins in Arkansas. They are going to undergo training to work this summer with children that have disabilities! I almost missed that whole thing, but was in the right place and the right time for Victoria to share that with me. I'm proud of Victoria.... just so much. Proud of both of them! Yet must admit I wasn't that thoughtful when I was a teenager. Much respect to my wise younger daughter for making a decision to do something that isn't always easy. I'm sure just as all experience, she will learn invaluable lessons.
Hopefully it won't be that long before I get on here. If any of you are around! I so want this spring to be one just full of life for us all. I have emerged with a real thirst for not wasting time. Net sum experiences have caused me to conclude that this is very important. AMEN
Be Good To Yourself
Paul Motheral
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Snow lover here too!!! You could drive down our road,and the lawns were covered in a smooth white blanket,until you get to the Delaney lawn,and it was a ripped,torn,beaten down mess....You can tell who likes to have fun!!! There wasn't a place in the lawn or the several acre field that had'nt been touched by a sled,4 wheeler,or dune buggy...WE HAD A BLAST!!!!
ReplyDeleteSeeing those lawns that had not even a foot print in them made me want to bust through them,cut a couple of donuts,and be on my way,but for the respect of others,I managed to ward off the temptation...Now,after the snow has melted,you can really see the aftermath of all the fun...Some ruts here and there,the ground beat to a sloppy mess,and a few lost gloves and scarfs still laying around from where they were uncovered by the melting...Kind of a big mess really...That's o.k. though...It was worth it!!!
It reminds me of something my dad told me once...
My front yard has a steep hill (jump) at the top of it,and Morgan likes to ride up the yard and hit that jump,then turn around and come back down it...It reaks havoc on my lawn...It keeps the grass worn to the dust,and allows the yard to wash out during hard rains...One day,she was doing that continueous loop through the front yard,and I got on to her about it,strongly voiceing my thought on what a mess she was makeing of my lawn...After my tantrum,my dad calmly looked at me and said quote "Son,you can raise grass when you're through raiseing kids" unquote...That has stuck with me,and will continue to stick with me...It helped me to realise that some things are worth sacrificing other things for...So...With that being said,if we get more snow,get out there and tear up the yard!!!It's memories that will never be forgotten,and fun had by anyone at any age....
Randy