Another one

My shift key is not working well. This drives me crazy. But I have always been ambidextirous so I'm slowly getting used to my right hand handling the right shift key for my capitals. I have always written with my right hand and possibly it used to be always my dominant hand. Then I 'accidentally' ran over a friend driving a go-cart with my motorcycle in 9th grade leaving bad motorcycle tracks on his back (thank the Lord I did not break it or hurt him worse)...then I went careering into or better put under a 70's model Ford LTD..snapping my right wrist, breaking it. We later found out at the hospital it was broken on a 'growth plate' and at my age this would ultimately deform my right wrist without surgery; so a very embarrassing shot in the rear by a nurse (i was in 9th grade!) and soon they wheeled me to the room where the anesthesiologist got ahold of me and I woke up in my hospital room; unpleasantly confused from the anesthesia. All of this to explain, that year I wrote with my left hand for school, certainly ate with my left hand and as long as the cast was on there, everything else. Showering was a nightmare with a garbage bag badly fitting. Point of all this is ever since I have never eaten with my right hand since. My handwriting is right hand, but can't judge it right because my handwriting has always been bad. Yet if asked which hand is stronger these days, I truly cannot decide. Why did I start this, oh yes the bloody shift key and learning to use the right hand with the right shift key for my capitals. Let's find something else.
I'm very happily learning a larger repetoire of dishes I can make for Victoria. For a person who has never really cooked very much in his entire life, you have to understand how much a victory this is for me at this time period. I have very much taken being the lone parent very seriously; and want to be the one who they think of first when hungry, cold, tired, sad, everything under the stars. I'll never replace Susie..don't want to and I'm sure the children would in secret agree I wouldn't stand a chance trying to do those magic things she did for them. Yet I am determined to be all and do all that is possible. Only after I meet my own impossible standard will I be able to relax and think of other things.
I found a new Jim Croce compilation at a store (can't remember which one) but it thrilled me to hear songs I had never heard before from this songwriter/singer who got cut down way too early. Just songwriting he would have been incredible. His widow and son run a little restaurant I believe called 'Croce's' in San Diego. If anyone is ever in this city, since I don't think i will be travelling there soon, I will happily reimburse you for a shirt/glass, anykind of sturdy memorbilia I am such a fan of his stuff. I'm a music fan bad, and got it honest from my dad so I have so many favorites. I once used a computer database to categorize every CD that I owned; of course this was before I PODs. But it had artist/albulm title/release year/ and about 4 more important categories. I spent years updating and keeping that thing, and printing it ate up a lot of paper. It can be Louis Armstrong, Bill Haley, Beatles, Rolling Stones (who get extra star..they make sure even at this age that if you go to one of their shows, you leave thinking, "that is the best performance I have ever seen!) of course until you see them again. Seventies got so diverse i couldn't possibly name them all. but late seventies/early eighties had some great rock and roll. Pat Benatar, Police, Van Halen the first incarnation, Eagles, most of Don Henley solo..although when I saw the Eagles live, I was blown away by Glenn Frey's singing when I was sure before the show it would be Don Henley who would be the best. Saw Boston live and loved their music. Can't believe that lead singer Brad Delp took his own life. Which makes me remember of course the incomparable Eric Clapton who I never truly appreciated until I saw him live at Knoxville. Such a guitarist he never followed the same path twice. He would just create as he went, and if he started something which would have naturally ended out of sync with the band, he would completely change and brilliantly come right back into it with them. I now regard him as one of my favorites, and his autobiography is so good. He is one of the few who is humbled enough to talk about his alcohol and drug addiction so honestly and truthfully, and then most sincerely talk about how he goes about staying sober. He went to Hazelden, which many consider the very best in the USA. In his book he said Elvis went so far as to drive up to the place (in Minnesota) and while his limo driver stopped, he cracked his tinted window down about half way and then said keep driving! Late eighties music began to change and I had some favorties but not many I just became lifelong fans of. Occassionally someone would come around and I would like it. By some sort of karma accident, I've seen Aerosmith more than any other band. I like Aerosmith, and talk about dysfunction..their auto-biography is a wild book! Just the drug intervention on Steven Tyler made you feel you were in there; everyone in the room afraid of him when they confronted him. But if that band got clean, its hope for every human being in the world! Wild Story.
I don't know if I mentioned it, but I got my water bill the other day and it was for $48,111.15 !!! It took me a bit to come to Earth and realize there had to be a mistake. How much water would cost that? Bethel College's swimming pool which is olympic size or darn close to it wouldn't be that much! A quick call straightened it out, and they were laughing on the other side, so it put me at total ease. I'm going to laminate the thing and think of some wild story to tell someday in the future! Better go! Paul