Blog questions, concerns

For some reason, I am feeling that this blog isn't working out the way I had hoped. Then again, I knew the readership would fall off greatly after Susie passed; Caringbridge was for her and I was only the communicator.. well that's not true exactly. I did pour out my own heart and soul about what was happening to our family. Helpless, but as I was telling Susie's father, we woke up each day with a fighting attitude. Stay positive. Pray. Never give up. I read an article on triple negative just the other day; something I have been very much avoiding since whatever occurs right now it doesn't matter for us. But it talked about how grim the diagnosis was and how with the average toll and ultimate price paid...Susie did really beat the odds for a lot longer than many others with this kind of cancer. The doctor at Vandy had told me that much. That everytime Susie came in, for the longest time until the kidneys started becoming threatened and then the abdomen..that the doctor was silently amazed at Susie. This was in that interview between just the doctor and me. All of it at the time surreal because she was telling me the intestine would probably be the culprit that Susie could not recover from. She also nailed the time left for Susie by less than a week. IT was an exit interview, but also she was preparing me for what I had yet to face. I would recommend this doctor to anyone who finds themself in the same situation. We went to the number one doctor in Triple Negative and flew to N Carolina and this doctor told us she would not do a thing different from Dr. Mayer. Abbey needs me and so off I go. I thought though this blog would have more posts, but I understand.
Paul