Not sure what is doing this, but I just want to be at this keyboard. I should really make this post quick and get on with getting to sleep. I think it may be the oncoming holidays that are working on me. Susie's favorite time of the year; which she would do just so much. By now, she would have the christmas cards ready and I don't have a clue. The tree would be soon to be coming up, however I always begged her to wait until after Thanksgiving. She respected that, because Thanksgiving was her favorite. The house always full and Susie orchestrating just like a conductor with his wand, in total bliss. She didn't write a whole lot in the folder that I had had to see for the better part of a year that said in very large letters with lots of tape to not open unless Susan Motheral's death. I expected a lot of things, but like Susie she kept it very straight and simple. Which made each thing written that much more important actually. Inside there was a small couple of sentences, in it was her wish that Thanksgiving be held here so all the families could be together. It was very important to her that there was no splintering where one group would have it apart from the others. I felt that way myself, so we are going to do it the way we've been doing it for a long long time. Only our conductor can't physically be there. I will be sure she's around, however. So, we will do improv. We will have several conductors and it will be the best meal of the year. But make no mistake, we will miss our conductor, for she had the love for the holidays and that flair to make it like beautiful music. I'll finally stop talking,writing.
Take the time. Enjoy every day. Paul
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Paul - It sounds like you will be fulfilling Susie's wishes for Thanksgiving exactly as she would want them to be. It will be obviously very different and at times sad for everyone there the first year, but slowly you will gain the knowledge that all of you were so very there for her in her life and now you have all stayed together now that she is no longer with you. It will be a process, but honestly, doing the Thanksgiving and having several "conductors" will be a very good step in healing for everyone in your amazing family.
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Still cannot get over Abbey's incredible success at lasting through an entire football game and following the game back and forth. Every time you write about her, I am aware of the great progress she has made and continues to do so. And Victoria, she seems like this blessed person of grace who has great things in store for her. And great things for the people who are fortunate to be around her.
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I want to thank you Laura. You not only are one of the few people who will log on and read what's going on with me, but also post to let me know I'm not in complete withdrawl from the height of the caringbridge experience which despite the terrible times that were going on, comments and observations provided me with extra steam when I was runnng on fumes; emotionally and physically. I appreciate you. Paul
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