Thanksgiving Accomplished

We had a wonderful turnout of family and friends. It was hard, and in between laughter and hugs and good times there were many faces that showed a solemn reflection, a large hole in the place where our conductor used to be. I said the prayer, which I remember so often every year Susie would look to me to say the blessing. So often in earlier years I knew there were others who could say a blessing with so much more ease. I never use the same words again, as I notice some people do. I say what comes to my mind at the moment everyone has their head bowed. It causes anxiety and sometimes I would give a good blessing and other times I would want it back. This year, I knew it would be me and I knew it would not be complete without mentioning the big absence physically and in the heart and spirit. I was told I did good. Special moment shared with Victoria, which in itself made the day so special. We made it. Yet it was very very hard.